I met someone last night while I was out clubbing/dancing with my friends. He's English. Has a real cute accent. Says funny things like cheers, bloke, bird, bloody and pissed that make me laugh. Tonight, we're going out to the bars together. I'm bringing my friends, he's bringing a couple of his coworkers. Tomorrow, I'm showing him around Chicago. I know it's chessy it's his first time in Chicago or anywhere in the states. And I've never really done the tourist thing, or at least as much as I'd like.

The only bad new is that he's only hear for 27, well almost 26 more days before he goes back to the UK. He's here for some sort of training related to his work. Maybe it's a good thing that this can't really go anywhere.

I'm back. I think everything is all good again as far as the website, webhost etc.

While, I haven't been able to update for a while that doesn't mean that a lot hasn't been happening in my life. There's never a dull moment.

Adam: Me and Adam are no longer a couple. That's if we ever were. There's no simple answer on why we broke up. He wasn't comfortable with my relationship with Jess (I can't blame him. In a way it was a way to push him away). In the past few weeks, neither of us were really happy when we were together unless we were having sex. I'll definitely miss the sex. He was good. Am I heart broken. Far from it. It was one of the easiest break ups in a while.

Jess: While we haven't slept together since that night we have talked a lot. I don't know where this relationship is going. If it's really going anywhere. And if it doesn't go anywhere that's ok. If it does, that's even better. We're kind of in a weird state of limbo right now.

Went out partying last night. Partying like I was 21 again. Had fun. Got drunk. Woke up hungover and dragged through work but it was alright. I had a lot of fun with my friends. I ended up dancing a lot. After a few drinks I seem to think I can dance. I didn't meet anyone specific, just had a lot of fund dancing with strangers. There's an appeal to dancing with someone with no strings attached. Having his hands hold me, explore my body. His body grinding against me. Yeah, it was fun.

My blog might be down for a few days starting on Monday due to circumstances out of my control. I'm doing everything I can to get it back but this webhosting/domain crap is really a pain in my ass.

I wrote this last night but for some reason Blogger wouldn't let me update it. So if any of the time references are off that's why.

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Last night, before I went out and Adam went to work we met up for a quickie. My idea. We started making out and things quickly progressed to me half naked on his bed. However, not being able to keep my thoughts in, I told Adam I was going out with Jess afterwards. He knew I was going out but didn't know it was hanging out with Jess.

He reacted by not saying anything. I asked him what our relationship status was. We both answered we didn't know. We agreed that we didn't know where it was going. I said I liked him. I said I was enjoying our relationship but that I had feelings for Jess. It was then I realized I never saw myself being with Jess in a serious relationship. Which just made me feel lonely but didn't stop me from being horny.

Adam and I did have sex but only a real quick quickie before he had to runoff for work. It was fast but satisfying (satisfying me for at least for a half hour).

I quickly redressed, redid my hair and makeup then sped like maniac into the city but I was still late. Jess was waiting for me outside of the club. The place was crowded but we found a spot to sit down and talk in a lounge area. Before I really said much she knew something was wrong.

I asked her where we were going. It took her kind of by surprise too but she had all the right answers. Basically she said, she's not looking for a relationship but she's not looking for just sex.

We didn't stay long. We had already lost her friends, they had gone on to another club. We headed back to her apartment. It was my idea.

I'd be lying if I said I wasn't nervous. We went directly to her bedroom. We kissed, it was soft but filled with passion.

We laid on her bed just kissing and holding each other for at least an hour. We only stopped when I needed water.

Things shifted gears when we returned to her bed. I asked if she wanted to go further.

"I've been wanting to since the last time we were together. It's all I can think about."

She became the aggressor. Taking our clothes off. Kissing me all across my body. Teasing my nipples. Lightly biting them. Nibbling on my shoulder. Playing with my hair. Her fingers danced between my legs. Her mouth followed. A woman performs oral different from a man. I wish I could describe it in words but I can't. She brought me close to an orgasm then stopped. I wrestled with her until she was on her back and my mouth was between her legs. She tasted amazing.

Sex can be so serious sometimes. With her, we spend half of the time giggling. It really is a fun thing.

We took turns performing on each other. We used her dildo and vibe. We played until we couldn't hold back any longer. I went down on her and didn't stop even as her moans became really loud. She came with a squirt. I've heard of women ejaculating but never seen it or experienced it. It wasn't like a man, just three little drops but it surprised the hell out of me.

Her dildo brought me to an orgasm a few minutes later after she recovered enough from her orgasm to sexually attack me.

Wefell asleep in each others arms, holding hands. I woke up this morning, and found our thongs lying on top of each other and all of our clothes mixed together on the floor. I had to smile to myself.

I enjoyed myself but I don't know what to tell Adam. I only talked to him briefly today but I'll have to think of something he's coming over after work.

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A lot happened last night with Adam. I'll update that when I'm not running to work.

Adam and I never officially became a couple but when I'm talking about him with my friends I call him my boyfriend. He's introduced me as his girlfriend.

We've been messing around for X months. I've enjoyed it. A lot. But I wonder where this relationship is going. I don't see myself settling down with him. I don't see myself with him in a year.

This morning when we were having sex I started to think. It's a bad habit, I really shouldn't think during sex (at least not about sad things like relationships). I though that/realized that maybe I'm just in the relationship so that I'm not alone. So that I don't have to go places by myself. So that I can get fucked on a regular basis.

I'm not saying I don't like Adam. I do but on some level I also like Jess. But she's told me she doesn't want a serious relationship. She wants to have sex, she wants to hang out some, drink some. She wants a friends with benefits. Adam is the one who wants the serious relationship. Adam wants someone to come home to.

I don't know what I want. I want to be with Jess but I don't want to lose Adam. I could try to be just a sex partner with Jess but I know that like always I would develop feelings. I already have and we haven't slept together in like six months. Probably longer.

Anyways, Adam is working tonight. We're planning on getting together when he gets out of work but I've also made plans to go out clubbing with Jess. My plan is to go out with Jess then when Adam calls me I guess I'll have to make a decision. I know I could put it off for a while but this is tearing me apart.

Sorry, I haven't really been writing about the naughty details of my sex life. I like writing those details hopefully as much as it turns you on but Jess and Adam are the only things on my mind.

Weeks fly by. Just thinking about it makes me feel old, but what a week it's been.

Saturday I did get really drunk. I came close to drunk dialing Jess but instead I had sloppy drunk sex with Adam.

Wednesday night, we both didn't have to work. We planned to spend the night in bed. We planned on having a lot of sex. We kind of made up a goal that I would have at least three orgasms before we were done. It didn't work out like that. Sex was good. His oral skills were good as always but after my first orgasm all I wanted to do was sleep. Work and the stress along with it really are getting to me if I'd rather sleep than have sex. We're still trying to reach that goal but really haven't had the time.

Besides Wednesday night, I've talked to Jess about every night. I kind of feel guilty talking to her. I feel guilty towards Adam because I have some sort of feelings for Jess. I feel guilty towards Jess because I'm not giving her all the attention.

Life would be a lot easier without feelings.

Here's what happened last night. Nothing happened. Well not exactly. I did hang out with Jess. Did anything happen. Something could've but nothing did.

We went bar hopping around the northside of Chicago. We were headed towards getting very drunk but before it was too late I told her I didn't want to get drunk. I knew what would happen if I got wasted. So around one in the morning we walked around just talking. It was good because I was just buzzed enough to tell her some of things I was thinking.

The night ended with a hug in front of her apartment before I drove home.

Today, was my day with Adam. He took me out too lunch then we went to one of the outdoor malls and did a little shopping.

We went back to his house because he said he was going to cook me dinner. He eventually did but before that we had sex. It was after sex, while we were just laying in the bed I told him about last night. I told him that Jess was an ex and that I still had at least some level of feelings for her. He made a couple jokes about threesomes but I think he got the message that I was doing a lot of thinking.

Tonight, Adam and I are going bar hopping. I plan on getting drunk.

I don't know where to begin.

I took today off to spend time with Adam, he has to work tonight but both off us have Saturday off. It should be fun. I don't think we've ever had this much time together.

Today started great. We spent the afternoon running around Chicago acting crazy. I was a tad bit horny. And by a tad bit, I mean very very horny. I wanted to have him fuck me in the parking garage before we left. However, just after we climbed into the backseat and started to remove some crucial pieces of clothing we heard a car door open. Someone got into the car right next to us. He didn't see us, the windows are tinted but we decided it would be better to wait until we got home.

I couldn't wait that long. Once we were on the highway back out to the sleep suburbs my hand somehow found it's way into his jeans. I started with massaging his cock with my hands but that lead to my mouth finding his cock. Adam was hesitant at first. We were surrounded by rush hour traffic but no one could really see. He has an SUV right now and I think the only people that had a good enough view were truckers and there weren't too many of them on the road.

Almost at our exit, Adam finally came. We both were all smiles. Then while we were waiting for the light to turn green I lost my smile. I tried to put a fake one back on but it was difficult. Driving by was my ex. My heart stopped. Suddenly the cum that I had enjoyed was making me sick to my stomach. This was the ex who I thought I was going to marry. The one who I thought was my soulmate and he had some bleached blonde slut in his car. He didn't notice me.

It ruined my afternoon. It made me start thinking about Adam. I wondered if he could be the new white in shining armor. I wondered where our relationship is going. We don't really talk about things like that. I don't even know if I want it to go anywhere. I like being lovers. But is this really it?

Back at my place, we went back to my room. We had sex, but I just went through the motions. I was too busy contemplating.

Then after he left, Jess called. This time I answered the phone. She was very flirtatious and greatly improved my mood. For one reason or another (lust) I agreed to meet up with her tonight. I don't think anything will happen tonight. I just need to get out tonight. Definitely, don't expect a threesome. Been there done that. I care too much about Adam to ruin our relationship with a threesome. But I don't know how much I really care about him if I'm thinking about Jess this much.

I just don't know where this is all going.

Illinois lost big last night in college basketball but watching the game I won big. Adam is a huge sports junkie and he went to Illinois so March was really mad for him. And what is really crazy is that he got last night off to watch the game.

For me, I'm a sports fan but never really into basketball. I make my tournament picks every year and usually don't have any of my picks make it very far. This year was about the same except I picked Illinois to play UNC in the final four. Too bad I got the rest of the tournament completely wrong.

But anyways, to my point. We were going to go out to watch the game but luckily we decided to just stay in at his place. Needless to say (that's one of my most over used cliches) we were alone so even with the game on things got hot and heavy. Our clothes quickly came off and five minutes into the game we were having sex.

Good sex. It had been a while since we had sex when we were both sober, not tired and not running out of time.

By the time the first half ran out of time, Adam had left me breathless and unable to move for a few minutes.

I got up during half time to get some water, when I came back I couldn't resist Adam. He was just sitting on his couch, still naked. I put the water down, then got down on my knees in front of him.

My mouth made love to his cock. Sucking, licking and teasing him. I got pretty into it, going up and down on his cock as quick as my lips could go. I didn't even notice when the game started again. That's when he stopped me, and said "you don't have to do that if you don't want to."

I thought it was pretty odd. I've never been stopped during a blowjob before unless it was by cops, parents or roommates. He explained, he thought I was too special, too good to get down on my knees and give a blow job.

He didn't believe me when I said "I enjoy giving head." I couldn't explain why then and I don't know if I can now. It's basically the feeling of power that comes from the ability to make a guy orgasm. Plus I enjoy pleasuring him. I like making a man feel good. Plus, it's a turn on for me.

He didn't resist much when I started sliding my lips up and down him again. I teased him forever, letting his orgasm build up. Going as quick as I could, then slowing down, drawing on his orgasm until he couldn't hold back anymore. I focused on the top of his shaft and the head, feeling it grow rock hard, then right before he came I released his cock from my lips. I told him to cum on my face. He did. His cum spurted onto my forehead, into my eyes, on my nose and some made it on to my lips.

He waited for my reaction and when I licked my lips he smiled. I smiled then licked the remaining cum off the tip of his cock. His cock shook. It was still semi hard and I put it back into my mouth. A few minutes later he came again, a smaller amount of cum flew onto my face.

It was his first back to back orgasm, he said. I also think it's the first of many more things to cum.

Ever have a long hard day at work and just want to get drunk or laid afterwards. Yeah, that's how my day went. The customers were crazy. My boss was stressed out so I'm stressed out.

All I wanted was to go out and get drunk tonight. That's not going to happen. I'm not really in the mood now to go out. And there's no liquor or beer even rubbing alcohol in the house. That's a lie there is some whiskey but there's nothing to mix it with.

As far as getting laid, I'm tired of Adam working nights. I need to have sex more often. We had great sex Thursday afternoon, but we only had a limited amount of time to spend together.

Jess left a voicemail today. She invited me to some party but all I can think about is Adam. I think I'm going to call her back but not tonight. Sometime when I can control my lust.