I was in a rush today. Even though, I had the day off I had a lot to do. I got my hair cut, went grocery shopping etc....

I didn’t exactly get dressed up to run my errands. I wore a hooded sweatshirt and plaid pajama pants. I didn’t wear any makeup and I didn’t do my hair. I just put it up and forgot about it. This wouldn’t have mattered except at Office Max, I ran into a super cute guy working there. It’s not like I’m looking for anyone but I was looking for ink for my printer. They were out, so I asked if they had any in back. He didn’t recognized me but I recognized him as the same guy has helped me out in the past. I asked him a question about where something was and he did more than just direct me to the right aisle. He walked around the store one time helping me find everything on my list. Today, without saying it, he seemed annoyed to have to help me. I think it was because I was dressed down. The other time, I had been wearing shorts and a low cut and revealing tank top.

I started feel a little depressed. I stopped to fill up my gas tank on the way home. On the other side of the pump, filling up his car was another cute guy. He didn’t even look my direction more than once. He was dressed in a suit. I wanted to say, “Hey check me out. I don’t usually dress like this. Today is my day off. Come talk to me.”

Adam came over before he had to go work earlier this evening. He made me feel special. I told him about what had happened and as he took off my sweatshirt, he said “You look good no matter what your wearing.”

Today was a foreplay day. We spent what felt like hours kissing. Our hands exploring each others bodies. Our lips licking each other all over. Slowly taking our clothes off and admiring each other like it was the first time we had seen each other naked.

I was on top most of the time. At one point I was kissing his chest. I rolled my tongue down across his stomach. His body shook as my lips neared his dick. I teased him and went past it to his thighs. I licked his balls and tasted them inside my mouth. Then I licked up and down his cock. His dick became solid. I put it into my mouth. Just the head first, I sucked on it, trying to pull hard on it. Then I let all of it inside. It felt so good to be going up and down on his cock. I didn’t stop until he came. His cum filled my mouth and I swallowed it.

Afterwards, he told me he said I give really really really good head but that he didn’t expect me to go down on him. He definitely didn’t expect me to swallow. He said, I had seemed like the kind of girl that wouldn’t give a blowjob unless he asked for it. I told him that he had a lot of surprised ahead then if he thought I was that kind of girl.

He went down on me and it was mind blowing as always. I think he should teach classes on how to go down on a woman. He quickly brought me to an orgasm.

We had sex and after he came we finally collapsed on to the bed. I fell asleep. When I awoke, he was gone.

There was only one thing wrong with my relationship with Adam. I never see him. He works nights, I work days. Instead of complaining about it for another day, I took Saturday off from work. I called into work because I have about eight billion sick days to use. I didn't want to deal with crazy customers packing my store. I really wanted to spend the day with Adam. The plan was for us to go out and do some couple things like going to the movies.

Saturday afternoon, I wasn't ready when he showed up. I was still getting ready. I let myself get delayed by watching some crap show on television. I opened the door, we kissed then I planned to go back up to my room to finish getting ready while he stayed down stairs and watched television. Instead, he wrapped his arms around me, tackled me on to the couch. He pinned me down and kissed me hard. At this point, I was only wearing a robe, my panties and bra. He asked if my roommate was home. I said no, but I think even if I had said yes it wouldn't have stopped him.

Just thinking about it now, is making my panties literally wet.

He undid my robe and pushed himself against me. He rubbed his erect dick against my pussy. I needed him so bad. It had been almost two weeks without him. I was burning on the inside. He was starting to waste time with foreplay so I unzipped his pants and his cock came out. He pulled my panties off. He fucked me hard and fast deep into the couch. I held him tightly. It lasted only a few minutes but it's what I needed.

We went up to my room were we got rid of all our clothes. He pushed me on to my bed, then went between my legs. His tongue played magic on my pussy. It shook me, it felt so good. It didn't take long for him to bring me close to my orgasm. Right before it, I told him to fuck me. He did and his dick brought me to an orgasm. He kept fucking me through it and it felt so good.

We laid in bed, him holding me after we were done. I didn't ever want to leave his arms but after a quick nap I finally finished getting ready and we went out.

Due to some problem with Blogger and my web host I've been unable to update since Monday, so I have a lot to say.

Monday night Adam was scheduled to work until at least two in the morning. I went out with a couple of friends for dinner. We drank a little too much after dinner, then when I got home I continued my drinking. I wasn't expecting him to come over but around eleven he called, asking if he could come over. Without saying I'd been uncontrollably horny and dying for his touch, I told him to come over. We kissed and made out for the first time since we had become a couple. Things were about to start going somewhere when I passed out. Not a great way to start a new relationship. I thought Adam was going to be mad, but the next morning when I woke to go to work he told me he thought it was pretty funny.

Tuesday night, he didn't have to work but I had already made plans with my girl friends. I told him he was more than welcome to come over after that. When I told him I was planning to go to a bar with my friends, he took a rain check.

Last night and tonight he had to work. He worked until 3 last night and he expects to get out about the same time tonight. If I didn't have to work the next morning, I'd demand that he come over.

This isn't suppose to be how relationships work. I'm going to stop by his work both Friday and Saturday nights but it's not like we'll even have much time to talk. Weekend nights are very busy at the bar. It looks like the next time I'm going to see him is Sunday night.

I'm lonely, sad and depressed. I can't see this relationship going very far if it stays like this.

The Good Doctor died last night. About six years ago a friend of mine handed me a copy of Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas and I haven't been able to stop reading Thompson's work since then. He inspired me to read, write and live life to the fullest.

That is all for tonight.

Adam and I sat down and talked tonight. We went out for dinner, then a few drinks. I thought it was going to be us getting drunk, the going home for some sloppy drunk sex. Instead we stayed relatively sober and talked. I had been wanting to know what he wanted out of this relationship. I wanted to know if it was just sex or something more. It looks like it's going to be something more. We decided to slow down and just date for a little while to see how things work out. Tonight was our first real date. As far as first date goes it went pretty good. When we were leaving, we ended holding each other outside in the cold rain. I told him I don't kiss on first dates (I was being sarcastic) and we kissed. It was one of those long kisses, when you don't want to let go of the other person. I pulled back only because I was literally freezing my ass off. I was wearing a short skirt and the freezing weather wasn't suiting me well.

So yeah, I'm all warm and fuzzy here. New relationships are fun.

Staying in tonight. I hoped to meet up with Adam before he went to work tonight but I got out of work tonight.

In case anyone was curious about last night, I did pleasure myself. I broke out my vibe. I hadn't used it in a while. I was feeling so good. I felt my orgasm coming close but then the batteries died. I almost died too. I couldn't find any batteries to replace them. I made a note to buy batteries and switched to the backup. I love my dildo but it's not the same when you're in the mood for good vibrations.

Since I had already missed Adam I stopped to get batteries on the way home from work. I had planned on going out tonight but instead I picked up where I had left off last night. It wasn't Adam but very very satisfying.

Now since all of my friends are out I'm kind of bored. There's nothing on TV and I don't have any movies to watch that I haven't seen a million times. I'm in a naughty and mischievous mood.

No pictures tonight. Just me ranting. Not even really ranting just commenting tonight.

Adam broke up with his girlfriend two nights ago. We hung last night and he slept over. He actually slept. We didn't do a thing other than kiss. And I'm not complaining. He held me all night long. Usually I hate that because I can never get comfortable and can't fall asleep. Last night, I fell asleep within minutes.

Tonight, we went out for a dinner. We had time to talk but stayed away from any real relationship conversation. In front of my place tonight, we sat in the car talking for a while. We kissed again and it got pretty hot and heavy but there was nothing besides a little above the clothes feeling. I wanted more and dropped hints that he should stay over. He got the hints but still went home.

tomorrow night he has to work so I don't think we're going to do anything. He doesn't get out until an average of three in the morning. I hope to be asleep by then.

I guess I'm left with no other choice than to please myself. Woe is me. I have such a rough life.

I could've used this entry to say how much I want Adam to call me but instead I decided to post a pic. I've been having some sort of exhibitionist itch to post pics. No nudes yet, if I do post anything like that I'm going to work my way up to it.

I like this tank top. I still have it (the picture is only a couple of years old). It makes me look like I have even bigger cleavage than I actually have.

I'm single and alone again on Valentine's Day. I thought for sure it would be different this year. I'm going to drink a few beers but I'm getting drunk like in the past. I'm not going man hunting in bars. It's not the end of the world. It's just another night.

I ended things with Jack last night. I told him it wasn't working out. I didn't tell him about Adam.

Adam and I finally sat down and had our talk late last night but not before we had an intense fucking session. Three orgasms later I could barely get out of the bed.

I told him I really liked him and wanted to see more of him but that I didn't want to be the other woman. I've been the other woman before it never leads to anything good. I've been the one cheated on and it hurts. He told me he was going to talk to her.

Adam had to work tonight so I decided to spend tonight alone. I didn't want to be around a bunch of drunks. I really didn't want to be around Adam before he talks to her. I don't think I'd be able to hold back.

And the good news. I was looking through my room for something tonight and came across some old 3.5 inch disks. Contained on the disk are my nude photos. I'm debating posting some of them. We'll see. ;-)

Jack just called to say he's on his way back. I should be excited. Instead I'm kind of nervous.

I slept with Adam last night. I went out with him and his friends. I had a great time. His friends were cool (I've never met any of Jack's friends which I'm now thinking is kind of odd). They were all real nice and tried to include me in their group. I had a little too much to drink but I wasn't out of control. I knew what I was doing when the bar closed and I went back to Adam's apartment.

We went straight to his room. We made out like wild animals and I started to take my clothes off. Less than a minute after I was naked I positioned myself doggy style. Like I said, I was a little drunk. He wasn't gentle he fucked me hard. Pounding me into the pillow. He lasted a long time, probably because he was intoxicated too. I was enjoying every minute.

When he came, we collapsed on to the bed. He was asleep in less than a minute. It wasn't fair, I couldn't fall asleep. That's when I started feeling guilty. I thought about his girlfriend. She wasn't my responsibility though, and if he slept with me something must not be right with their relationship. But what really kept me awake was thinking about Jack. While we're not officially boyfriend/girlfriend I would be pretty pissed if slept with another girl.

I left before Adam woke up. I had to go to work for a little while this morning. He left a message on my cell while I was there. I called him back while I was driving home and we agreed we have to talk. We were going to meet up this afternoon but Jack was coming straight to my place when he gets back to town so me and Adam delayed our talk.

I'm sorry if this isn't the most well written entry. I'm still a little hungover and I have alot of thoughts running through my head.

Once my roommate finally got ready last night, we had a lot of fun. We haven't really hungout in two weeks but it seemed like forever. Even though I see her just about every day I missed her.

Do I have to ever really grow up? It got a little wild last night. We all had a little too much too drink. My roommate has a bad habit of flashing strangers when she gets drunk. I'm so glad I got through my phase of that. I had a bad habit of flirting with Adam too much. He flirted a lot back. More than the way friends flirt. I had to keep reminding myself I have a boyfriend (well, that's still up for debate). He kept mentioning his girlfriend. It was like we were trying to convince ourselves not to do anything. Why couldn't this have happened when I was single?

We came close to kissing at one point. We were talking, looking into each others eyes and we started to lean forward. We stopped though. We stayed away from each other for a while after that until I was getting ready to leave. He asked me if I still wanted to hang out with tomorrow night. In a little while I have to shower and get dressed because I'm going to go out with him and his friends to a bar.

A quick update tonight while I wait for my roommate to finish getting ready. We were suppose to go out at ten o'clock, it's now 10:30 when I started writing this. I take a while to get ready but she's really bad. She had to try on six outfits tonight before finding the right one. It's not like we're going to any place fancy. We're headed out to the bar where my friendly bartender, Adam works. I went there last night and he literally spent half a hour apologizing to me for not being there on Superbowl Sunday. We're also planning on getting together and going to another bar where he can really drink. We've been trying to get together for a few drinks for a while now. It's just as friends, I swear.

As far as Jack, I won't be seeing him until Valentine's. He's out of town for something business. He said it was last minute but I get the feeling it was something he knew about well in advance. Something just didn't feel right when we talked about it. He didn't tell me until last night, that he would be gone for the weekend. He waited until the last possible minute. After we had sex last night, he told me he had to tell me something. That freaked me out. I thought he was going to say he had some disease or something. I also got the feeling that he's just with me for the sex. I hope I'm being paranoid. I've had to many lovers that just wanted sex so I'm hoping it's just my imagination. But this week I started to get some bad vibes that I've never felt from him before. He hasn't done anything. He hasn't said anything. It just kind of doesn't feel right.

Well my roommate is done. Finally. Time for some drinking.

Today, for the first time I called Jack my boyfriend. I was talking to some of my coworkers and it just sort of slipped out. I don't know if I really consider him my boyfriend. We go out on dates but I don't know if our relationship is really official or anything. It was so much easier in high school. Back then it seemed all my relationships started with a nervous boy asking me if I wanted to be his girlfriend.

When the boyfriend word slipped, my coworkers and I were talking about our plans for Valentine's. I don't know if Jack has any plans. I don't know if he's going to make any plans. I don't expect anything big but I'd like to do something with him that night. I'd make plans for us but I really don't know what his schedule is like.

There's a lot of gray area right now and it seems like we need to talk. We talk all the time just not about these sort of subjects. Not that they're that important but they would make my life a lot easier.

Other than that our relationship is pretty good. The sex is really good. Since our first time, there hasn't been any quick finishes. Last night he lasted about thirty minutes during our second session. Not that I was timing it or anything. I've cum first during the actual sex before but it's still a semi rare occurrence. I'll admit it's making my panties wet right now thinking about it. I wish he was here right now.

Did anyone else notice the superbowl ad's were rather lackluster and disappointing this year? I can't say I paid too much attention to the game. I was rooting for the Eagles to win only because one of my friends had bet some money on the Patriots.

My bartending friend Adam had invited me to the bar for the Superbowl. I even convinced some of my friends to go there with me but Adam was nowhere in sight. One of the bartenders working told me that they had to change the schedule for that night and Adam got taken of the schedule. Disappointing, but I'm glad Adam hadn't ditched me.

However, I did see a guy I had a crush on last year. I had made a drunken phone call to him one night but it never went any further. He was sitting across the bar. I caught him looking at me but I'm not sure if he recognized me. My hair is a different color now and it's a little bit longer. I was planning to go say hi to him when another group of my friends came into the bar. This lead to a big conversation on who would win the game and lots of laughter. When that all settled down he was gone.

During halftime I made a couple of phone calls to see if anyone I knew still had his number but I was unsuccessful. During the third quarter was when I really started to get bored with the game and started to make some drunk phone calls. Nothing too exciting there other than that if I ever end things with Jack I have a couple of guys that are more than willing to sleep with me.

I went over to Jack's house again last night. I was more in control this time but I was about a hundred more times tired. We watched the Simpsons on his couch. He served me some glasses of water. After the Simpsons I was a loser and just went to sleep in his bed. I did end up half naked but nothing happened.

He was out the door before I had to wake up.

Had a little too much fun last night. My friends and I went to the bar where, Adam the bartender I flirt with works. He made our drinks extra strong and gave us way too many free shots. I can't remember the last time I was that drunk.

Instead of going home like a good girl I had my sober friend drop me off Jack's place. I banged on the door until he opened it. I told him I needed to get fucked. I left him standing in the doorway as I walked to his bedroom. I stripped my clothes off and threw them on the ground on the way there.

He joined me on the bed and we made out for about thirty seconds. At this point I told him "I want you to use me. I'll do anything for you." He didn't tell me to do anything but I felt his hard cock pressing against me. I crawled underneath him and partially pushed his sweatpants down. I put his cock in my mouth and went to work. I ordered him to fuck my mouth. When he came close to cumming I removed him from mouth. I ordered him to cum on my face. He did and even managed to keep it out of my eyes.

He got on his knees while I wiped my face off and started to eat me. I think I stained the sheets with my dampness. He was doing an excellent job I started to feel like I was going to cum, but before I could I passed out.

We woke up this morning and while I laid in bed he got me huge glass of water and a cup of coffee. He filled in the hazy spots of the night. I told him I usually didn't act like that and he found it kind of funny. He said I didn't have to apologize. He enjoyed the night.

Time for me to start getting ready again. Another night of drinking ahead. Adam made me promise that I would come back to the bar tonight to watch the SuperBowl. I could careless about the Superbowl but I can't wait to see Adam again. I know I'm so bad but it's just harmless flirting.

I never really liked movies with subtitles before. It could be the fact that I've never actually watched any of them. Saw another awesome movie last night with Jack. We watched Y Tu Mama Tambien.

Jack said he liked it for the sex scenes, I don't think he paid attention to the movie when they weren't having sex or talking about sex. They sex scenes were intense. They motivated us to have sex twice during the movie. Not that it takes much motivation for us to have sex.

Anyways it's time for me to get going. It's a girls night out.

I've finally had time to take a moment and rest. I took a much needed nap after work today and woke an hour later with Jack softly kissing my neck. It takes me a while for me to wake up usually but his fingers seemed to be a special alarm clock. They slid beneath the waist band of pj pants and underneath my panties. They found my clit and went to work. It felt pretty good but I needed more. My pants came off but he left my panties on (I think he has a lingerie fetish, which would be a major turn on). He pushed my panties to the side with his fingers and his tongue went to work on my lips. They teased my clit. Finally he attacked my clit with his tongue and lips. His fingers penetrated me. With him doing that it didn't take long for me to climax.

He left the panties on when he fucked me. He's starting to get really comfortable with me. The awkwardness is finally gone. He didn't hold anything back.

When he came we were both sweating like it was a hundred degrees in the shade. I could barely breathe. It was amazing. I swear the bed shook for a few minutes even after he stopped thrusting into me.

We've had sex almost every day since our first time together last week. It's really really nice to be getting satisfied on a regular basis. I can't begin to tell you how much I missed it. I don't know how I went without. This may have been the longest time I've gone without sex on a regular basis since I lost my virginity. Ok maybe not but it ranks up there. It seems I've always been in a relationship or had a friend with benefits. Maybe I needed to be alone for a little while. Maybe I needed to find myself. I still have a lot of finding to do but I think I can do that even if I have a lover.

Sorry for the lack of updates. I suddenly had to work a lot the past few days. I have a lot to say tonight, just not the energy to write it. Expect more Thursday night.