I slept alone last night. Most likely I'm going to sleep alone tonight. But I'm okay with that. For the first time in a while I sleep really well last night. It turns out all I need was some breath taking, sweaty, nasty, naughty, casual sex.

There's only one drawback. I have feelings for Troy. I guess I've always had some feelings but they became stronger since our first night together. I could see this going someplace serious if it wasn't for another woman. His exwife. They're divorced, they rarely see each other and it's been a year but he told me he's still not over her. He warned me before our first time together. Of course I wasn't thinking straight at that point. He told me while his lips were wrapped around mine and his fingers closing in on my pussy.

So that leaves me in this never never land. I could've gotten a number today, from a cute guy but I really wasn't at all interested.