I don't know where to begin.

I took today off to spend time with Adam, he has to work tonight but both off us have Saturday off. It should be fun. I don't think we've ever had this much time together.

Today started great. We spent the afternoon running around Chicago acting crazy. I was a tad bit horny. And by a tad bit, I mean very very horny. I wanted to have him fuck me in the parking garage before we left. However, just after we climbed into the backseat and started to remove some crucial pieces of clothing we heard a car door open. Someone got into the car right next to us. He didn't see us, the windows are tinted but we decided it would be better to wait until we got home.

I couldn't wait that long. Once we were on the highway back out to the sleep suburbs my hand somehow found it's way into his jeans. I started with massaging his cock with my hands but that lead to my mouth finding his cock. Adam was hesitant at first. We were surrounded by rush hour traffic but no one could really see. He has an SUV right now and I think the only people that had a good enough view were truckers and there weren't too many of them on the road.

Almost at our exit, Adam finally came. We both were all smiles. Then while we were waiting for the light to turn green I lost my smile. I tried to put a fake one back on but it was difficult. Driving by was my ex. My heart stopped. Suddenly the cum that I had enjoyed was making me sick to my stomach. This was the ex who I thought I was going to marry. The one who I thought was my soulmate and he had some bleached blonde slut in his car. He didn't notice me.

It ruined my afternoon. It made me start thinking about Adam. I wondered if he could be the new white in shining armor. I wondered where our relationship is going. We don't really talk about things like that. I don't even know if I want it to go anywhere. I like being lovers. But is this really it?

Back at my place, we went back to my room. We had sex, but I just went through the motions. I was too busy contemplating.

Then after he left, Jess called. This time I answered the phone. She was very flirtatious and greatly improved my mood. For one reason or another (lust) I agreed to meet up with her tonight. I don't think anything will happen tonight. I just need to get out tonight. Definitely, don't expect a threesome. Been there done that. I care too much about Adam to ruin our relationship with a threesome. But I don't know how much I really care about him if I'm thinking about Jess this much.

I just don't know where this is all going.