There was no sex in my life today. I worked during the day and Adam worked the night shift. Instead of complaining how much I miss Adam, I’ll answer the comment from my last entry. Anonymous asked me to tell the story of my first blow job and first time I received oral. My only comment is: Are you sure you want to hear about my first times? They were more awkward than sensual.

I didn't give head for the first time until almost few months after I lost my virginity. I loved having cock inside me but I thought having a cock inside of my mouth was gross and dirty. Please explain that one to me.

It was with my first boyfriend. For about a month, we had been spending the weekend afternoons at his house making out. We had done just about everything besides sex and oral. While his parents were still at work we'd spend hours on his couch or in his bed half naked. He fingered me, I gave him hand jobs. I let him just about whatever he wanted with my breasts. Even though he was the only one orgasming, I was really enjoying our afternoons but I knew he wanted more.

One afternoon, he took out a condom and asked if I wanted to do something more. I told him I wasn't ready. Two months before I had lost my virginity to a boy that used me for sex. Once he got what eh wanted he disappeared. My boyfriend, was different but I didn't want to be hurt again. He laid a guilt trip on me. He argued he wasn't my ex and that he would never break my heart. Which was pretty true, a few years later I broke his heart. The guilt got to me and I offered to give him head instead.

Reluctantly, I got on my knees on the carpet in front of the couch. I kneeled between his legs and unzipped his jeans. He pulled out his cock, I was too nervous. It was about seventy degrees in the house but suddenly I felt so cold. I was only wearing a bra and panties but that wasn't the reason.

He said something, I don't remember what but it made me feel comfortable. I put his cock in my mouth and awkwardly went up and down on it. I started to sweat, I felt dirty and wanted to take a shower but I looked up at him and he smiled.

As I went up and down on him quicker I accidentally bit him a couple times but he didn't seem to mind. I think he even liked it. He pushed his cock into my mouth and when it went to deep I gagged but I didn't mind that too much.

I knew he was going to cum. I had seen cum before, I felt it and even tasted in small doses after giving hand jobs but I wasn't ready for cum in my mouth. His cum shot into the back of my mouth, I gagged almost throwing up with his cock still in my mouth. I pulled back while he was still cumming and the cum got all over my face, my chest and my bra. I wasn't too happy but the way he looked at me, I felt so sexy. He later told me it was the hottest thing he had ever seen. He told me he would never forget it. I felt powerful, making a man cum with just my mouth.

It only lasted about two minutes. I enjoyed, but not half as much as he did.

I think I'm going to save the story of the first time I was eaten for another night. I think I'm all typed out and writing about that experience woke something up inside of me. I may have to break out my vibe and dildo.