People are allowed to change their mind right? I realized that there is a good chance I will never be with the love of my life again. I may have to find a new one. I really don't want to be alone, waiting for the day when my mr. right to come alone. I do like Jack, I can't eliminate him two weeks into a relationship because I don't think he's the one.

Last night, I went over to his apartment to watch a movie. It was my first time at his apartment, I expected a bachelor pad, but it was actually really nice. We planned on watching the movie on his couch but we didn't even get halfway through the opening credits before we decided to pause it. We were kissing and weren't able to really pay attention to the television screen. This leads to my shirt coming off. At this point I was kind of nervous but really enjoying it. He was pretty gentle. Some guys like to tug and pinch my breasts, I like that sometimes but not the first time a guy touches them and not all the time. His hands and mouth really turned me on. I didn't stop him from taking my jeans off. He kissed my entire body, running his tongue up and down my sides.

We went to his bedroom, I watched as he stripped out of his clothes then climbed on top of me on the bed. He's kind of on the thin side but his body is toned. I didn't even know he worked out. The kissing and touching started again. I couldn't stop myself from grinding up against him. We played a game, I tried to force him into me and tried keep his cock away. I knew I was going to win. He felt so good inside of me. I spread my legs completely and let him fill me. He started to fuck me.

But after only a few minutes, right when I was really beginning to enjoy it, he came. Needless to say I was disappointed but it was far from a first. And he started to apologize which made it worse. He said he hadn't had sex in a few months and didn't want to disappoint me. But then he made up for it. He started kissing me, lick me all over my body. He paid special attention to my breasts then slid his tongue down my stomach. He teased me forever, licking my thighs, brushing his tongue across my pussy and when I couldn't take it anymore his tongue attacked my lips, then my clit. I think I came in less than a minute. It was great.

After a long break, we went back to the movie. We watched Secretary. If we hadn't had sex before the movie, we would've during the movie. It's the story of a girl, who is hired to be a secretary of a lawyer who happens to be a dom. A lot of spanking and pain in the movie. The whole lifestyle of Dom/sub really doesn't turn me on but some parts of the fetish does. We had sex again before the end of the movie. The second time, he lasted a lot longer. I think he could've gone longer if it hadn't been for the climax of the movie. The climax is a very hot scene and he couldn't hold himself back from coming.

We had sex one more time in his bed, then fell asleep. I woke up in the middle of the night, and started massaging his cock. He just rolled away from me. I don't know if he did on purpose or if he was asleep. He didn't say anything about it when we woke up and we really didn't have time to talk about, I rushed out so I could get to work on time.