I ran into the perfect guy today. He's cute, tall, dark and handsome. He knows how to dress, loves shopping, is caring and he doesn't have a girlfriend. Only problem he is gay. Went to one of my favorite stores in the mall after work and ran into him. I haven't seen him in a while, every time I've stopped by he wasn't working.

He was going on break and went along with me while I was shopping. For a moment today, I thought maybe him. I don't know for a fact that he's not bi. However, I quickly shot down that idea. If he was bi, the idea of him with another man would be a turn off. Plus, I already tried it before.

In high school one of my close friends was gay. We used to flirt a lot but of course he was gay. But even some of my boyfriends thought he was bi, it kind of bothered them when he would feel me up in front of them. But we were just playing around. And my parents thought he was bi too. At one point they banned him from our house after they caught him sleeping in my bed. It didn't help that we were naked. It was hot that night, I swear nothing happened. At least not that night. Of course the ban didn't stop him from sneaking in after they went to sleep. And it was while my parents were asleep, that we sit in the downstairs livingroom and watch tv, and talk to three in the morning. He would've been a great boyfriend if he wasn't guy, he loved to talk.

But he was gay. I remember that one night we were hanging out in my living when he told me about the first time he had given head. He told me it made him physically sick but said he couldn't wait to try it again. Pretty similar to my first time giving oral. We loved comparing stories after that. Talking about our lovers: who was great, who came quick etc... Then he started hinting that he wanted to try being with a girl. Just to see what it was like he said. I think many girls have a gay friend that they'd like to turn straight and here was my opportunity. He had already felt me up, seen me naked, slept with me in the nude. All he had to do now was put it in me.

It was about three a.m. when we bored and both horny with no other lover available. We were laying on the couch watching bad tv. He made the first move. Asked if I would give him head. It was weird leading him to my bedroom. I've lead other guys there for sex and he'd been in my bedroom hundreds of times before but this time it was different. We didn't kiss. And we didn't plan on going any further than oral. I was kind of hurt when he said guys gave better head but he wasn't a pro when he went down on me. He knew the oral wasn't really exciting me (another plus for him being a good boyfriend: he was a caring lover) and asked if he could. He wouldn't say the words until I said yes, you can fuck me. For it being his first time he wasn't half bad. He fucked hard and fast when I needed it.

I was his first. He had a lot of oral sex prior to that but never sex. He was my first and last gay lover. Our relationship kind of went down hill from there. It's true sex does ruin friendships. But I ran into him about two years later and he was still gay but glad he had the chance to experiment with the other team.