I'm kind of emotionally drained so there isn't going to be a long entry tonight. The holiday shopping craziness at work is killing me. Plus the news about Ryan's girlfriend didn't help either. I'm suppose to go out with them on Wednesday night. I'm kind of looking forward to that. I like inflict more pain in myself. Actually, it's kind of a relief knowing that he's off the market, it motivates me to keep looking instead of settling.